i am now 19, unrealistic, carefree, irrelevant, uninterested and i have never ever been happier than i am now.

hope you're all well.
xo

my cupcake:

you must get tired from running around in circles in my mind...

i got to the end of the road i've been walking last night.
staring and making all these assumptions i made so many connections.
gosh, thats tired. its a shame that my feelings have expired.
i no longer have the emotions to deal with the manipulations you've been feeding me.
so if this is how this  game is played, im sorry but i am unable to understand the rules.
my senior year debut is in a couple days and let me tell you the feelings are "oh so bittersweet."
i've stood infront of 100 people and played the 'this is how i want everyone to remember me game.'
i've taken your words with a grain of salt and sifted through.
i've been the needle in the haystack, the only problem is that you never bothered to find me.
its sort of like you never lived at all.
this is a controversy, its oh so contro, contro, contro...
vercial.
i know you wish you sounded like this, webbing and weaving these words together
to make sense and to not hurt.
i have the inability to hurt people.
its just turned around and i concentrate on falling apart.